the feels

My life is a roller coaster. 

So many things happening at once, yet somehow I'm expected to complete them all perfectly. When I make mistakes, I'm overly hard on myself, somehow I feel I have to be perfect, even though I know it's impossible. When I do things right, I don't give myself enough credit. In sports, a common phrase is "consistency is key". I need to work on being consistently confident.

It's like I have a small case of bipolar disorder. Emotions come and go like warm weather in Utah. One day I'm absolutely ecstatic about life then the next, I'm completely depressed because in 3 months everything that I'm familiar with will be gone. My friends, my family, my home. I'm going to miss the things about home, but the wonderful thing about home, is it can be anywhere. 

#tbt

I miss doing whatever I want. I miss the stress-free life. I miss being with my friends on Tuesdays after school playing super smash bros.
                Now it seems that I could never do this again. I can't live like this although I wish I could. I remember going to my friends house every Tuesday and exploring the secret garden. It was completely filled with every treasure a kid could want. I still remember the smells of childhood. The dull crayons, the fresh pine, the sticky sap. Childhood flashed by like a lightning strike, and now we're off to college, getting drop kicked into the world. Cherish the moments you have now because they could be gone. In the words of The Head And The Heart, "it never feels like treasure till you lose it all."

fake vs. real

People are always complaining about how people are "fake". Personally, I don't think it's always a bad thing. Of course it is bad to lead someone on, thinking that they are friends, and then shut them down. But there is nothing wrong with being kind. Do people really want others to be "real" with them and just be a jerk? That would be a complete de-moralizer(if that's a word). 

There is nothing wrong with being kind all of the time, to everybody. Just because someone is being nice then doesn't call you to hang out on the weekends does not mean that they are fake or hate you, maybe they are simply just kind. You don't have to be friends with everyone who is kind, just be kind back. Distinguish your friends from nice, kind acquaintances.

Versatile Bricks

Bricks are what built some of the greatest  landmarks in society. The Great Wall of china, the pyramids, the London bridge etc. but in this case these bricks are all for one purpose. To create, to expand. Imagine the endless possibilities that bricks could create with this one purpose! Except bricks have so many different purposes than just to create. 

We shouldn't hold ourselves back to one purpose. If you are in school, don't stick to your clique, go out and talk to someone new. Get out of your comfort zone. Don't stick to one purpose. We can all reach our full potential of we expand our capabilities.

ticking time.

One of the biggest problems in today's generation is lack of creativity. Today's most common saying is "let's hang out". When this happens we all just sit around and look at our phones. Where is the creativity in that? We let time pass like it's  nothing. Time is valuable. Time is what helps us reach our goals. Our generation needs to live in the moment. Rather than spend useless time on social media, do something you normally wouldn't do. 

•     -Go on a hike. Be aware of your surroundings and be grateful for where you live. (Everyone is always talking about how they hate Utah. I don't get it. It is one of the most beautiful places I have ever been.)
• -When you want to be with friends, don't say "let's hang out." That is a very broad term that can mean anything. Actually plan something like games, hikes, movies, sports etc. (it sounds a lot more appealing if you have a plan)

If you are bored, don't just sit around. Live in the moment. Make the most of every situation. Be creative.

Valentine's Day Hoax?

Valentine's Day is a hoax. It isn't real. Just commercialized, common greed. Don't get me wrong, i think it is a great day to tell someone you love them. Why do it on just one day though? Tell someone you love them every day. Did St. Valentine know what would become of his name in the future? St. Valentine never intended his acts of service to be memorialized or praised. He simply was kind. Little did he know that his name would be over-produced and used for profit.

This holiday makes men feel guilty if they don't buy anything for their special someone even though love can be expressed so simply. Men and women shouldn't have to be reminded to go buy their better half flowers. Love should be expressed every day not just on special occasions like St. Valentine's Day. Love doesn't have to be expressed through material objects. Tell your special some one how much they mean to you. Do the dishes without them asking you. Simple things like this show love. Write a card to someone. I know for a fact whenever I get a note that says someone cares about me I am delighted. Show love everyday, to everyone.

twenty five songs to happiness

            music is plays such an important role in my life. i have never realized how much it can affect how you feel and how you act. whenever i am in a bad mood i play some of my favorite songs to boost my mood. here are some of my favorite mood-boosting jams.

1. River-Leon Bridges
2. Coming Home-Leon Bridges
3. The Way It's Always Been- Brandon Flowers
4. Going Up The Country- Canned Heat
5. I Heard It Through The Grapevine- Marvin Gaye
6. People Get Ready- The Impressions
7. Let's Be Still- The Head And The Heart
8. The Judge- Twenty One Pilots
9. As We Ran- The National Parks
10. Read My Mind- The Killers
11. When We Were Young- Adele
12. Lyin' Eyes- The Eagles
13. Only Love- Mumford And Sons
14. Shark Attack- Grouplove
15. Stolen Dance- Milky Chance
16. Comes And Goes (In Waves)- Greg Laswell
17. No Other Love- Common Kings
18. We Sink- Of Monsters and Men
19. When We Were On Fire- James Bay
20. Don't Worry Baby- The Beach Boys
21. Saw You First- Givers
22. Genghis Khan- Miike Snow
23. Run- Coin
24. Sir Duke- Stevie Wonder
25. Something Like Olivia- John Mayer

Diluted Hats

when I was younger, I loved hats. I collected all the hats I could get(or find). My hats were pretty ornate, they had designs all over them. My favorite hats were probably baseball caps. Back then, I wore a new hat about everyday. 

Now that I'm older, I have a different view on hats. The only reason I will ever wear a hat now is if I'm having a bad hair day. Looking back on when I was younger, I realized that I looked like a fool. These hats  had massive flats brims that made me look like a duck. I can't believe myself now that I thought I actually looked cool. 

I still carry this same view of hats today. They cover up what we really are. They cover up our outward looks, even worse, our souls. They dilute what we really are, and make less of what we have become. People are walking around covering up the best parts of themselves.  Hats cover up the things that are most vital to us. People are embarrassed of themselves so they wear hats. People don't want to show that they are weak, so they wear hats. This has to stop.